Unspoken

I can't get you out of my head, and the thing is that I'm trying. I'm trying really hard. And for awhile it was working and you weren't entering my mind. But now, I can't escape it. And I don't understand. I want to understand. What is it about now? I hate how I drive by things that have memories attached to them.. memories I'm trying to forget. But every single time I see them, it jumps out at me. And then.. I start to think. About what once was. About what could have been. About what I perceived it to be. About you. I start to wonder how you are, and then I start to miss you. But I don't want too miss you. I want to just let it go, but I can't. I don't want to be the girl that cant just forget about it. My feelings were hurt. Questions have gone unanswered. Maybe I just need answers to finally let it go. I don't know. Oh how I wish I could just forget. Move on. And stop thinking. But now, those thoughts are entering my dreams. Vivid dreams. Dreams where I wake up and feel as though everything is different. Good. But then I realize that I'm laying in bed and it's time to get up, and thats when I realize that it's not reality. In my dreams it all makes sense. I hate waking up after you are in my dreams. I hate it. It makes me sad. And then I'm stuck thinking about it throughout the day. It's almost as though it's Gods way of torturing me. I want to jump into my dreams where it all is clear, where everything is okay. All I know is that lately whenever I see you, I want to kiss you. All of these emotions swirling around in my head, and I'd give anything to make it stop.